THE VENTING BLOG!

So this blog is more for me, than any of my readers. This has been a very hard week for me physically, mentally and emotionally. I have been pretty sick with no energy what-so-ever, and for some reason it has really been effecting my emotions. It also was end of month at work, and that is always is such a headache just to make sure everything gets done.

I usually only cry at that time of the month, but this week for no reason it has been everyday before after, and during work. I swear I could provide the water for the Noah's Ark. Does anyone else get like this? Maybe I am just ready for some sunshine, or maybe it's because someone hit my car this week.

Tonight I read the conference talk "Hope Ya Know, We Had a Hard Time", by Quentin L. Cook, and it was awesome. I guess sometimes it's okay when you have no one else to turn to, to tell your Heavenly Father hope ya know I'm having a hard time.

Tonight was a good night though. My roommate and I had a pretty good chat about the gospel, and it was so much fun just to share different experiences with each other, and to motivate each other to just be better people. I know that I am so far away, and I have so much to learn and improve on...but it's definitely something I am willing to strive for.

Another good thing is that Cassidy my roommate, and I have started a food storage for ourselves. We started this goal in January and so far we have a case of chicken noodle soup, Macaroni and Cheese, Tuna, mandarin oranges, water, peanut butter, spaghetti sauce, toothpaste, apple sauce. We are pretty proud. We are also going to start having a food storage night once a week! This is something that my Bishop suggested doing, but you eat out of your food storage one meal a week. This is really great because you cycle through your food, but you also learn how to live off your food storage! We just decided that every paycheck we are going to buy a case of something, but it's a good feeling to know that if something happened we could live on our food for probably one month.

This week has been a real introspection week. I have thought a lot about what I want, and what I need to change in my life to get there. I really have been missing my brother J.K., and my brother Heber a ton. Heber will be home on April 9th, and I can't wait to have him back. He is seriously one of the biggest lights of my life, and he loves to go country dancing! I also have been worrying about my Mom quite a bit. Some things I guess I will never understand, or even know how to deal with, but I guess Heavenly Father puts you in situations that help you grow.

I do however want to say what a strong support my Dad has been to me. He calls me everyday, and if he ever misses a day I always get a phone call the next day stating that he was worried sick about me and why didn't I call him. He has definitely been my confidant, and best friend, and I am so proud to call him my Papa John! I also am very thankful for my step mom. Every night before I go to bed she will always text me and wish me goodnight and sweet dreams!

Anyhow I am sorry for my venting, and complaining. Hopefully when I start feeling a little better this will all go away, and I will be back to my usual happy go lucky self. I really have been blest in my life with a great job that is pretty secure, and guitar is going great, I have great friends and family, I live in a beautiful home, and I even learned some great blues riff's this week. I have been blest with having everything I need and more, having the gospel in my life, having friends who love to scrapbook, I am a pretty good cook, I have great roommates, my closet is now organized, my laundry got done this week, and I bought a couple of shirts this week for 75% off!

Anyhow I am sorry again for venting so much ...Did anyone even get to the end of this neverending sob story of a post? I am sorry!